**+A Thankfulness Bag+**

Hey there,
I am so sure that you already know that I got zillion of work to do, yet I'm bloggin!
Awkward I know ^_^
However, when was thanksgiving?!! I seriously don’t know, anyway my lil **hugggi* niece Mai gave me a Thankfulness bag *glowing eyes* hmm..then i just realized that thanksgiving was like last week..anyway It was so adorable from her..I swear I was about to cry ..wa2 wa2 ..
I hugged her..then start checking the bakc it had some lil tiny winy yummy + weird stuff..however, I checked the ingreidents paper that was on the bag..
So check the YUMMY sweet ingredients that were in the Thankfulness bag I got from my adorable MAI:

1. A rubber band - to keep our hearts tied together always
2. A candy kiss - to say thank you for all your love
3. A soft pompom – to make you feel good when you are sad, like you always do for me
4. A band aid - to say thank you for all the times you make my hurts feel better
5. A facial tissue- to say thank you for all the times you dry my tears
6. A marshmallow – to squeeze because I like to hug you
   
   I was about to burst in tears … I hugged her tightly.. and kissed her endlessly.. I truly love this kid.. MY little fairy ..
   
   Its my duty now to spread my thanks to everyone I love and care about .. mostly to the one who stood with me always.. who was always there for me.. looking after me.. hugging me.. tickling me.. to the one who get nervous and stress when I blab too much.. yet come back to hug me …
   Thank you for being you..
   
   And thank you my dear little angel MAI for reminding me to thank all who cares about me..
   

^ c0nfes$ionZ ^

Just returned from the Farm, it was cool...great..
However, hmm.. got some stuff to blab it out..
yummmmm.. well Wish you read it...enjoy it... comment on it.. discuss things about it...jOIN me achieving it... so here we goooooo!!!!


***At the moment***
( new thing that I added recently, well here I fill this form after finishing writing my blab for the day)

Doing: writing ma daily blab..can’t u see!!
Eating: nothing..yet I am going to fast tomorrow
Sipping: cup a coffee – wanna stay awake for a lil bit..but its not working so gotta sleep later on-
Mood: pissed ..my internet cable sux tonight god knows what wrong with it, other than that I am cool J
Wearing: PJz
Thinking: hmmmtss nothing much …but need to sleeeeep I am so sure about it..plus mother nature is calling so betta finish fast n run **wide silly smile**


God whats so wrong with me?!!
I have no clue I sware to god...

I am loosing my time..myself..my everything..I wish if tomorrow I can go swimming for an hour or so..clear my mind..my soul..

Hmm .. I feel wierd, I spent my whole weekend just doing nothing...nothing in particular.. well I did many things, but according to University work which means to me or I believe that is the real priority..which is truely not!!!! I dunno.. but there are many other things that should be pritority than University work itself.. there should be konwing..learning...reading.. planning.. aiming ... there are many instead of just doing home works.. and writing papers that you may not really agree with or doesnt hold your ideas or your soul with it.. its a weird stop..but at least I am realizing things... which is the most important thing for now.. It is a discovery for me.. so true!! what is life for me? what are my priorities? why do I consider University work is the main priority for me? Well answering that could be: well what do I consider as life is that I am living, breathing, enjoying and reaching my goals and aims...what are my priorities or what I consider important as we can call them too goals and aims, are my satisfaction, meeting my values with things I do, spreading my ideas .. continue in building my personality and myself .. Discovering new things about me the world and the other. my life is not being stress or wasting time or energy on things that wont last for ever.. I believe that sometimes I can sweat for things are not important, and feel the pleasure on the not that much important things like grades!!! god I should feel good about other things..or I can balance between both.. work and achieving things..my life is to do the GOOD things in the world for others, is to be loved and remembered in a good way...is never needing things from people who wont give...is being with the good people..and be strong with the not good people and hold on... is enjoying every second and being optimistic.. is clarifying my soul from bad and evil... is laughing whenever is possible.. is loving and hugging everyone who need a hug and need to be loved.. is being the spirit that gives more than want to take... is being charming when things are simple and a smile can be my only mask to hold behind it a sorrow or something that I may loose.. because a smile can cheer up others that they in return cheer me up and be there for me all the time...my life is to me , is give and tomorrow god will send someone to give you what you want.. life is to me is to be happy and relaxed..never worry about things that God took care of it.. I trust in God on my life and my beloved lives.. My life is to meet everybody... from good to bad, from wise to simple .. all people..and never feel inferior or tiny in front of anyone.. even if I am alone.. my last question was why do I consider university work is more important than anything else? and as if I don’t have anything else to do! bleh..I got many more things to take care of and enjoy, university is the place where I got clear teachers that they may help me or make it harder on me to learn things, however, I should care about classes and about what people say in classes and talking .. cause listening to many people can give me a clear idea of how being silent is precious.. second thing I do consider University as important thing, because I got something deep inside me saying that I do need to get A's and good grades.. well I know it is really hard to leave that guilt feeling go away if I dont study hard and do my best to get a good grade, the thing that really amazed me was that in the month of Ramadan I got really good grades without hard work from me, but i was close to Allah and I was praying really hard and felt the greatness of being close to the Lord.. the whole issue that thank God I rely my life on my Lord and try my best and the rest comes from him.. I believe that my good grades are grace from my Lord.. I shouldn’t worry much about university, Yet I should give my best on what matters to me... clarify my vision.. see my future...imagine it clear... set a plan... study the plan....read more and more... and just go do it... make mistakes and learn from them...talk less do more.... the best YET to come that what I really do believe in.... In every second I wish If I can touch your cheeks and tell you that with your presence in my life...My thinking and life became better..my dreams are going to come so ture..with a person like you...If Allah gave me more time on this earth...otherwise..I am so enjoying my dreams... Imagination is amazing..and setting plans...working hard...getting up at 5:00 am sipping coffee...listening to great calming music...breathing the clear warm air of my room is great itself..I wouldnt mind leaving the earth with this great amount of love to you..and to my whole life..but still wish to can watch my dreams come true..and see you beside me..and people I love with me..and whom I care about is around me and growing ...I love this world, But I don’t mind leaving it to go to heaven...more time is going to be my great blessings ..to achieve more..try to spread the message of the lord to the largest number of people who should know about the great Creator of our amazing life and world...ALLAH.. Inshalla I would have the best amount of time.. to succeed my goals..and achieve what I meant to achieve in this world...inshalla LoveAlmondaz . F

Fwaaaiday!!!

Its Friday morning, my plans were to be online write and write about my most amazing feelings and everything that I felt last week, but I received a call saying : “dear get ready your brother is coming to pick you up and bring you here in the FARM” I was almost going to faint .. bleeehhh.. I wanted to cry endlessly…
Then I thought ..hmmm what about going having fun.. enjoying the weather right I am without a camera but who cares I am with my imagination and my notebook I can write endlessly..
So I am cheered up again! By myself..
N dint get ready yet..
So I better jump of my aS* n run
Hez coming in 10 minz n I m still in my pjz..the best thing that my hair looks amazing..weeew heheh…
Anyway I love myself so much..n its my right..
As I love you so much more than my ,,hhmmm anything after god and his messenger n mum n dad wallla =)
hmmm
so one last thing to add...

my adowable thing..wait for me to return back..n share some pix if possible (i doubt anyone gets a cam) however i would do write ...im so sure inshalla...


missssssing u waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayed...
tc and go to pray aljum3a prayer...ohhkkkkayehhh

**تنهيدة**

أخلق الحب للنساء دون الرجال؟؟ أخلق
الحزن للنساء دون الرجال؟؟
أخلقت القسوة والجمود للرجال دون النساء؟
لا أعرف
أي شعور يعتريني.. لربما هو اشتياقي لحضن اعتدته..
أو لصمت أشاركه مع من
أحب..
فكم عشقت صمتك..وعشقت لحظات الصمت التي عشتها في حضنك..
شككت بنفسي..
لوهلة..
هل باستطاعتي كسب ما فقدت من أحاسيس..
هل سأبقى في مرحلة
الرفض..
ولكنني ها أنا من جديد..
أبلل وسادتي بدموعي..
أحادث قلادتي عن
همومي...
ارتشف المر لكي أنسى ظنوني..
آآه كم وقفت أمام المرآة وقد احمرت
عيناي
وامتلأتا بالدموع...
لا أريد شيئاً سوى قربك..
سوى مطارحتك لي كل
شيء..
من صغير وكبير..
فلغتنا التي نتحاور بها أعلى وأرقى عن أي لغة عرفتها
البشرية..
همسك لوجداني .. برودة أعصابك ودفء أطرافك..يشعلان النيران
داخلي..
افتقدت كل شيء..
ولكن مع هذا أدركت مدى لذة مرارة الحب..
اشتقت
لك..أنت وحدك..

عزيل قلب بات ما بات

إلى من حرك بعض المشاعر الجميلة في خاطري..

إلى من هو من لحمي ودمي..من أهلى وأنا فخورة..

اليوم أهديكم بعض هذه الكلمات..لعلي أوفي بعض من حقكم..

لكم... وحدكم ...

عزيـــل قلب بات ما بات*** يذكر ومتشــــوج لـــغاليــــه

مرن عــليه عشر ساعات***افرش فراشي ومرن اطويــه

ماتنــفع الميــهود ونـــات ***عزيـــل قلـــب بـاح قاصــيـه

في مـن هواه فـرق الثنيات***الغر الــــلي حـــــــلوه مــعانيه

حـلــو المعـنق والـقذيـــلات*** وان سـار يـــتمشى دجــر فيه

الـــزين لي مافيه دقــــــات***محروس مـــــاحدن رمـس فيه

الــــحب له ليعة وغصـــات*** لي مـــــادرابه يعــــله إيـــــيه

يا بـــوحسن فـــات الذي فات*** والله مســـوي لي مســـويــــــه

حـــــدن ازوين وحد صوغات*** لـــي من رمـــس قلـــبك يسليه

جـــــانك عليه هوب شـــمـــات***يوم القــــيامة جــــــاد نـتـــلــيه

** Movies I loOofe **

Each one with a story...
I'll leave you with the photos, the stories to come...

بالعربي..هي مشاعري الليلة

في جنبات غرفتي العتيقة
أجلس على أطراف سريري
أداعب مخيلتي .. أتذكر الماضي
استمع لأعذب وأروع ما خطته أحاسيس العشاق والشعراء...
إلى أين وصلت؟؟ وماذا أوصلني إلى هنا؟؟
هل هي حقيقة .. أم أنا التي أوهمت نفسي بها
هل هو واقع قريب .. أم حلم عتيق
حلم رسمت ملامحه بمزاجي .. ووضعت فيه أعذب التفاصيل
وأرق الهمسات .. في كل أنحاء حلمي الوردي
حلمي الطاهر ..
أبتسم .. ثم أبكي .. ثم أشعر ببرود قاتل
برود يقتل مشاعري الهالكة في دروب الواقع
أكاد لا أطيق الحياة .. في بعض الأحيان
وفي أخرى .. أقبل كل ذبذبة تدل على وجود الحياة
آآه يا قلبي .. هل فرصتي ستحين عما قريب
أم علي الانتظار ..
هل سأتمكن من البوح بما في خاطري .. هل سيسامحون جرأتي ؟؟
وهل أهتم؟؟ .. أم يجب أن اهتم؟؟
همممم ياقلبي الجريح .. لم يبق الكثير
ففرصتك قد حانت .. هذا ما تخبرني به مشاعري وأحاسيسي
فلا تحزن ولا تهن ..

** A smile... A blush ** Thank You

How amazing,
How wonderful
Your arrival was,
How grateful I am to you
I don’t know what exactly to say
Or how can I express my feelings,
Yesterday ….
Was such an amazing gift to me
I don’t know if it was for me
Or do you care anymore
But I was so contented
My heart was pondering
And I kept on my flying mood
Eternity,
I smile while I am with them
Or alone..
Remembering everything…
I couldn’t hold my heart jumping out of my chest
When I glimpsed your features
Your happy and confident features
I am so grateful to know you
And secure to know how do I feel towards you
The feelings are so true and deep
That I know,
Before I lay in my warm bed
I smile
When I got up at the morning
I smiled
Small things satisfy me now
Small things are so great when it comes from you
I spent my night..
Visualizing my dreams in you
Smelling the ordinary smell of your appearance
I hope my words are helping me to express my feelings
My real feelings
Or whether my simple words are so real to be real
I want to be more poetic
But my words holds me
In only one point
I am scared to reveal your personality
That I kept for myself for so long
And would love to keep it for a bit longer
Till the time I am ready to have you
In my arms
When I am so ready to fight against the
Real stuff
Maybe our stuff and the rest stuff
Wait for me … as I am waiting for you
And thank you again for your short notice visit
My dear soul
Thank you